The Search

Void.
My life is.
I’ve tried to brush the thought
By filling my life with any other things I could
But like a child on tantrums
My heart refuses to let go of you.
Of my desire for you.
Who are you?
What are you made of?
Are you also from this world?
Are you the man from the past?
Or someone I still have to behold.
I wish the future will have you soon unfold.
I love you even before I know you.
Please show yourself to me soon.
Otherwise, don't ever make me feel
Like I can't live my life without you.
Never ever. Never ever.

Random Randoms

Haha. That was a general message.
No reason for you to take it personally!

Go and do your chores for today.
Don't end the day regretting
over what you haven't done.
Make today different from the rest of the days.

Boyfriend? Do you desire
of having a boyfriend at times?
'No, I am just wondering what life
Could have been if I had one.'

time and internet P2

Open the internet and... BooM!
All time scatters to nothingness
Like it had never existed before.
Internet is good but it robs so much of my time.

Then, why am I still here?

Sometimes I hate you.
I wish you could live your
life well
I wish you all the best.
Please take time to change,
To amend your ways.
I am looking forward
To meeting a new you someday.
For now, I can only wish you well.
Please be good.
Be good to yourself.
Always know that I love you.

-self

movie

This virtual world is a movie
People can make up stories
Chose their casts
Direct the plot.

Nothing to believe
No one to trust
With just a click of that button
Everything can get awash.

I prefer to live in the real world.

Sweet Mercy

No. Again? For the nth time?
You gotta change girl...

Yes, I was talking about her.

Let your yes be yes and your no be no, says the Bible.
This word is so familiar to her even from her childhood
She often says yes to people and no to herself
And often,sadly, she fails to realize both.

What has been happening to her?
She burned her time
And tomorrow she's gonna run again
What, really, is she doing?

Emptiness abounds from within
Her mind tries to dig much
Down to the bottom of her soul's heart
To see the reason for this unexplainable loneliness.

Lost time.
Lost season.
Lost opportunity.
Lost. Everything!

Everything's lost.

She needs to run.
To make up for the lost time
To fill the void
To feel her life once more.

But is she capable of running her life?
Does she have enough strength
To finish the race?
Oh, she needs grace. So much grace.


God of all grace, please allow her
To find that sweet mercy that she so needed
She deserve no gift or favor
An so she ask for your sweet, sweet mercy.

Please heal her shattered soul
And lead her home.

temporary goodbye

Goodbye blog. I shall not see you until I finish these two things that I need to deal with. I had been evading these for the longest time but I can't run no more. I have to face this bravely. Squarely. I will triumph in the end. I'll return to you victorious. That I promise.

eaten

I was supposed to post something here. My spirit was a bit emotional but when i clicked on the newly-posted blog on the other 'side' all my ideas were swallowed by her post. How could two different people in a different place and culture share the same sentiment? I thought I was unique from among all creations and my thoughts are mine alone... Ah, I am not alone after all.

I'll write my story some other time.

As always, this is me. The great procrastinator. Hope I can work on something today before the depths of the night take all the energy from me. I don't want to experience rushing again during early Monday mornings.

I need to change. I really need to.

* missing Sunday worship service, I feel like I've wasted the whole day. Lord, please help me redeem the time. Help me use to the fullest whatever is left for me today. Amen.

Wildflower

(Skylark)

She's faced the hardest times you could imagine,
And many times her eyes fought back the tears.
And when her youthful world was about to fall in
Each time her slender shoulders bore the weight of all her fears,
and her sorrow no one hears, still rings in midnight silence,
in her ears...

Let her cry, for she's a Lady
Let her dream, for she's a Child
Let the rain fall down upon her
She's a free and gentle flower, growing wild.

And if by chance, I should hold her,
Let me hold her for a time;
But if allowed just one possession,
I would pick her from the garden, to be mine.

Be careful how you touch her, for she will waken;
and sleep's the only freedom that she knows.
And when you walk into her eyes, you won't believe;
The way she's always payin' for a debt she never owed,
and the silent wind still blows, that only she can hear,
And so, she goes.

Let her cry, for she's a Lady
Let her dream, for she's a Child
Let the rain fall down upon her
She's a free and gentle flower, growing wild.