Keys

I can't find my office keys. I must have left them locked inside the office. Arghh... I need to consume tons of memory enhancing foods. I keep forgetting things. Why, why, why? I am too young for this. The one I want to forget is him. Not my things. Why do I keep on remembering the person I need to forget and forget the things I need to keep?

Relentless Heart

Why does my heart still ache whenever I think of you? Is four years not enough to erase all the memories? I wish my heart develops a selective amnesia... But is it really my heart that remembers you? Isn't it supposed to be the work of the mind? Impossible though because my mind doesn't like you. Only my heart loves you.

Had only both my heart and my mind agreed to accept, I could have married you a long time ago.

Everything is now of the past though... 'cause you are probably married by now.

But even if you were still single, there's no point of considering. We are simply two worlds apart. Different culture. Different creed. Different priorities in life. My love for you will not be able to survive the weight of REALITY. It will simply be crushed.

Painful as it may be, my heart should learn to forget.

Getting over

It's nearly one month but I can't still get over my lost umbrella. Am I being very possessive? Materialistic? Too attached?

Possessive? Nah! I value relationships, friendships, family... but I am not possessive.
Materialistic? I don't really own things aside from those that are really essential.
Too attached? Ah, maybe. Somehow. Sort of. I hate losing things.

What am I doing here?