past or present

that anger,
is it of the present
or that of the past?
tell me.
be honest, at least for a while
can't comprehend how such a joke
can bring deep a hurt
to your heart.
yes, i remember you
telling me of someone
who has forgotten
your name.
i know, i know
that hurts
though i can't
fully understand how such can be.
you said that he loves you
but after a year of being
separated by distance
he can no longer utter your name
because he has it totally(?) forgotten.
are you sure he loves you?
or maybe, that's only what
you want to believe-
a total illusion.

you told also of a friend
a best friend, you said
who promised to email you
once he gets access to the e-world again
but how long has it been?
six years, or maybe seven?
now, where's the email?
maybe he's too busy
maybe his email id was deactivated
and he can no longer contact you.
or maybe he lives in Saturn.
you said that you don't care anymore
and that you don't mind them at all.
but why that flare of emotion?

Forget him. Forget them.
They are not worth a grain of your brain.