The waiting process is so difficult.
I feel like crying every time I am in front of my computer
staring at my emails
and not seeing any news about my application.
God, please help me to trust you more
in this very difficult part of my life.
I trust You to work for my good.
Thank you so much. Amen.

Tired of waiting
But I must wait.
No other way, is there?
Shall I call?
Shall I e-mail?
But cousin advises
Not to be so pushy...
Lest I'll lose my opportunity
Oh, I wish I can have
that notice from them.
Soon.
Tired of waiting.
I just hope I am not
Waiting for nothing.

Please help me God.

I am reminded of the message I keep getting these past three weeks:
Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him. - Psalm 37:7

What if I don't get what I desire?
What will worry do to help me?
Life is worth living.
Every minute is worth spending well.

Patiently Waiting

Lord, if it is Your will for my life let it be done.
Please help me. It is my heart's desire but still let Your will be done.
I lay down all my plans, aspirations, desires, wants - everything - at Your feet, Lord. Amen.

What is life really all about??????
Tell me if you know.

My boss is such an allergen and I hate my job.
But today is my day and I MUST be happy.
At least for today...even just for today.

she confessed to me at last. hatred and pity... mixed feelings? numbed.